Did you ever wake up one morning and realize that the saying about "other half" is really true? I just did. I was thinking about the early days of Bruce and Renae. Back then I was miserable.
We've come a long way. We started off WAY too young and stupid to be married. I spent a couple of years wishing I could just get a divorce, but I couldn't make myself feel like it was the right thing to do. (I knew that one big mistake had led me to that completely miserable state of being, so I knew that making another big mistake wouldn't make me feel better. I felt trapped and damned.) One day I decided to trust in the Lord and do what I felt He wanted me to do (even though I couldn't imagine how anything good could come from it, at the time) which was to try to make my marriage work. Next came peace of mind. Things got better by degrees. Bruce and I started to get along, and little by little I started to not only like but love my husband. Then came our children who cemented the idea that we were a family, and permanent. It took YEARS for me to stop wondering "what if." I've been a happily married woman for a long time now, but the "better by degrees" is still in effect. Things get better and better all the time. It takes work, and a mutual effort of trying to make the other person happy. I just woke up and realized that Bruce is an integral part of who I am. We go together "like peas and carrots." He's the perfect match for me after all. Who'd a thunk it?
Snapshot of Hazel at Age Two - This picture right here is the essence of Hazel. She's such a ray of sunshine in our family and for pretty much anyone who meets her, and she's always read...
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